She knew she channeled her own anxiety about the entire undercover situation into keeping things orderly and in control, and living with someone so out of control like Ava might be more than she had patience for. She knew she and Ava were very different people, temperamentally speaking, and that Ava, for entirely logical reasons, had little to no practical life experience. She also knew best-laid plans were wont to go sideways with someone like Ava. She planned and vowed to sit down with Ava and discuss the practicalities, to try to make cohabitation as pleasant as possible for both of them. Habits that were fundamentally irreconcilable.

Little annoyances that became huge arguments.

She was privy to plenty of quibbles in the convent about stupid, everyday things that suddenly became big because incompatible people were forced to live together. She worried, and not just what it would do to her heart to spend every day in such close proximity to the girl who had made her feel wobbly in more than one instance. In an apartment this small, though, privacy was all but nonexistent. Beatrice was used to living in close quarters with others, but at both her former boarding school and in the convent she still had a modicum of privacy, and rigid rules to keep everything orderly and functioning. It only took one look at the single bed for the trepidation kick in, however.

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